February 2012
31 posts
Seriously, seriously, seriously?!
so now its when it hits me, that for me personally I can arguably say this is the worst day of the year for me. I didn’t mentally prepare myself for this…someone please stop this panic attack..its getting harder to breathe.
So.. this is great.
My brother’s father has passed away. He was 51. He had AIDS and Bone Cancer…Well, that’s the Brooklyn Health Care System for you…..
It’s sad that he is gone, but I’m more concerned about my brother. I know his father is out of pain and misery, but my brother has a history of alcoholism, depression and anxiety. Our family fortunately hadn’t dealt with a...
no surprises
reader, i can’t scream anymore. I cant crank out any depressing poetry or force myself to do an insane amount of work. At this point I am probably failing all my classes…probably. Not that I want to. I wanted to be the underdog and have straight A’s but a girl can only dream. You see I have this boyfriend that is stuck on something stupid, that I apologized for, and in return he...
because if its not one thing to fuck up school, home life, friendships, basically everything, I had to go and fuck up my relationship too. I basically have destroyed anything that I have held value in. What is the point of trying to pretend anymore?
Dangles
I’ve been sitting here alone for hours
Just watching.
Just waiting.
My feet. They sway back and forth and forth.
I drift in and out to the scene. Havent gotten good sleep for about 4 months.
Subtle sleep deprivation at its finest
What if i’m dead?
what if nothing..none of this could be worth it.
it isn”t
i will watch my feet, my life, dangle before me
Secrets
I could tell you all of my secrets, I can tell you how every other night at the strike of 12 I start to fall apart. I can tell you how I allow people into my life and trust them, and I just sit back and watch as it all falls apart. I can tell you that I am a very sensitive human being. I’ll pray that my tears could fix the world before I’d want to take any harmful action against anyone...
pennieroyaltee:
Stars - Bitches in Tokyo <3
1st day on depo
I am emotionally fucking wreck holy shit, someone help.
whatbrodysaidtoday:
Asking for It - Hole (feat....
You know what I love?
When I am 80% done with my cards and feeling optimistic, then all of a sudden the website i store and access on my flashcards decides to go down (AS I’M FUCKING SAVING MY SHIT, FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK)
Honestly
I feel kinda weird for even talking about this, as if its a big deal. i think the people that make such a big deal about this is single people (as I usually am) But i’m not going to sit here are say that it isnt for me. I hate Valentines day, not because im usually single when the day rolls around, but I hate the commercialism. I hate the fact that one day is singled out on which we have to...
This week...
By some miracle can I be ready for this Orgo exam on Friday…also for the microbiology recitation “exam” and finish my labs, and my homework, and still go to this valentines day dinner in the falls and still study for the microbio test next week and the physics test and the physics lab midterm? UB I hate you right now -.-
The situation is complicated.
But I cannot believe I’m twisted into someones technical baby mama drama, ahhh shit, ghetto girl fights….
January 2012
42 posts
parent: why hasn't ____ been round lately? i thought you were friends
me: well they turned into a cunt
One day i'm going to find a man that will...
But what i really wanted to say was that I cant believe I let myself fall into this
This may be this worse thing I ever done.
I cant see the t.v....
I hear the previews for new degrassi, and it sounds pretty ghey.
Fuck me.
It’s a thirteen kind of night.
Maybe I like the way it hurts.
I didn’t know we had different beliefs on something as simple as this.
Fuck Yeah, Secret Rooms!
fuckyeahawesomehouses:
Ok...cool.
Me: Life is not fair
Mind: No fucking shit dumb fuck.
Me: So how do I fix it?
Mind: You don't...shut up and suffer
Well I totally lose.
The first day of school isn’t over yet, and I’m ready to commit myself to an insane asylum, way to go Meghan, Way to fucking go.
I watched the walls around me crumble But its not...
