February 2010
58 posts
Ok so..
It’s been a long minute…Hello. So whats been happening? School is in full effect. The 29th was nice, I’m afraid to go online and check my bank balance, I didn’t keep track of how much I spent. Thus queueing rapid job search, regardless of what job it is. Although I refuse minimum wage because frankly, I have 4 years experience of work, and if we add my office skills,...
January 2010
26 posts
I've been busy...
I have been. just putting it out there to the followers that I havent forgotten about this. I just woke up from a nap. My rooms a mess and I have alot of homework soon. So I will be posting later..
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Last night I had me a dream son The end of the...
Fuck her good, Fuck her dead, Punch that bitch... →
Wikipedia says its a great fatal way to have sex, but if wikipedia told you to jump off a bridge would you?!?
This is a bit of terrific →
Hey kids, Don’t want to do your chores? Do what this kid did!…well not really, but read it anyway! *Click on ze arm!*
I'm about to eat out two people
Ben and Jerry. Yea, I plan not to eat anything else today, so this is acceptable. Dangerous? Sure. Do I care? No. I want ice cream, and the only way I can eat the wholle thing is if I don’t eat anything else and for those of you who don’t know. It is sooo do-able, the whole not eating thing, only for 24 hours though. OK so the frist day of school was yesterday = “worst first day...
Anatomy Book - 1/25/10
Oh boy! Class number 2. I am sooo uncomfortable right now. I’m drenched. My stomach hurts really bad, and i’m like “pass-out” tired. I might sleep in the pilot for an hour to let traffic die down and to get a tiny bit of energy for the drive home. As soon as I get home I’m taking off all these clothes, taking a hot shower and passing out. Fuck trying to have a normal...
Chemistry Book - 1/25/10
Let’s See…
My pants are wet
my hair is messed up
my coat is wet
the bookstore line is crazy
& there’s water falling from the ceiling
Welcome to you last semester at OCC!
Great.
So I have a new method for the capturing of my thoughts. No matter what book I’m in, I write! 17 mins into the class and this chem teacher’s making me very, VERY tired. Not paying...
2 hours of sleep at most?
OK so during my break between chemistry and anatomy today, I’m so calling my psychiatrist and I’m so going to getting a higher strength of trazodone, or just a straight of sleep aid because this is ridiculous. My stomach feels like it’s caving into itself. Great just great. I had decided to go to my old pharmacy this morning. Well, first I’m going to annoy them by calling...
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goodbye my friend, it’s hard to die when all...
18 Lined lullaby (Take Two)
Why is it take two? Because Microsoft is gay…
So anyway.
Like I was saying before everything got erased. Whenever I’m really upset, I can listen to one song and depending on the level of anger, I will eventually be put to sleep. This song be Pennyroyal Tea. Why? I don’t know reader. When I first heard these 18 lines of beauty, I was high on sleeping pills. For those of you...
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Mask
Her mask is cracking
Her mask is breaking
The reality is seeping through
And it’s there for the taking
The surface is weathered
The appearance is frightening
What stand behinds the mask
Is sure to queue some lightening
The reality has drowned her
The space has reached capacity
To the surface it oozes
Stained with bloody memories
Memories of a forgotten girl
A shattered life of...
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My Broken Heart
You’re slowly breaking my heart How could you let us fall apart? I guess there’s nothing more to say I guess this is the only way I know you love me You know I love you, clearly But sometimes I need more Than the knowledge that I harbor I need to feel it I need you to show it I’m not a coat you put in the closet Doing this will leave us composite I never wanted to us to drift...
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I’m on my time with everyone I have very bad...
REPRESSED CHILDHOOD MEMORY ALERT.
No it dosen’t involve a priest. But my dad. HAHA. It’s not what you’re thinking! Thats wrong and gross. You know whats wrong and gross? Finding videos made by my parents before I was concieved. My dad USED to have an obssession with me. I think he was trying to videotape my conception because I found several tapes but uh, the world may never know. Oh and just in case you’re...
“Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp....”
– Dorothy Parker (1893-1967)
Anyone who spends years in her lawyers file cabinet after her death is officially my hero<3
De-stressing part deux.
Did I spell deux right? Oh well Idc I fail. Well Anyway. I also like to destress by reading Demotivational Posters. So shall we? Oh Yes we shall! Keep in mind, these aren’t mine! I take no credit whatsoever! ….
Yes Yes. I love demotivational posters. Am I still mad? fuck yeah, but am i smiling..eh maybe. lol
Whats a way to de-stress??
Myspace Surveys! Those of us from the “Myspace Age” know about these lovely things! I’m sure I’m not the only one who has partaked in them to de-stress. So…shall we? Why Yes! We shall…
Do you still talk to your FIRST love? Yesh I do. He’s a good friend! What was your FIRST alcoholic drink? Barcadi O <3 What was your FIRST job? K-mart What was your...
True Life: Young Competitive Eaters.
This shit is intense kids, intense. So I’m supposed to have my car in the driveway by now. You know what I’m going to say next… Yep. She didn’t show! She will tomorrow …hopefully. Well I know she has to because if shes doesn’t I can blame her for me missing my first week of school and I’m pretty sure she won’t allow me to hang that over her head....
Silence is ...wonderful.
Yes. yes it is. I’m in this house, the stereo is on because for some reason the t.vs arent working. Neither is my interent, I’m piggybacking off of my neighbor. Oh well. So anyway what’s new? One of my acquaintinces in New York are crazy. He is mad at me because I lie and make excuses because apparently I am in Amherst but not telling him and apparently I didn’t have my...
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Hey you, see me, pictures crazy All the world...
How come everyone hurts me?
Answer to that? I’m too sensitive I guess. I mean my life can’t be that horrible that everyone hurts me… Can it? Yeah I’m beginning to wonder too reader. It’s 5 AM, I’m supposed to be up in like 2 hours. Great. Just great. What happened to how awesome this week was going to be? Why has it been so stressful planning everything, and so stressful with myself? Why...
My Stomach Hurts...and I'm Sleepy
Hello Reader, how are you? My stomach hurts… and I’m Sleepy. So it’s 9:08 am. I woke up at 7:20 am to take Josie and Jennifer outside. I went to sleep after 5 AM despite being up for over 24 hours the prior day. Well I plan to take no naps today. I’m starting my diet/exercise regimen today. Not going to lie, it’s a pretty intense one, but I just want to see how long I...
20 Pounds Later
Oh yes. This will be a weight issue. So I weighed myself because….well long story short I just needed to for something, and I’ve gained 20 pounds over the course of a few months. I’m eating too much…again. This is great….Actually No not really, It’s not great. I really need to start exercising or stop eating, or both. Yes reader. The whole “Our lips are...
Welcome to 2010...Bitch.
Hey Hey Hey! Welcome to the new story! Tis Part 2. Clever name eh? Bipolar 2? You see cause that’s my mental disease. Hahaha. OK I’ve been trying to start writing for a LONG time. Different factors caused this. Depression, Panic Attacks, Family, Planning, etc. So where should I start? New Years Eve? I’ll do a quicky and do the bullet thing.
New Years Eve - (2009 going into...
It's a new chapter...well...almost..
Ok so I have migrated to tumblr from Live Journal. I was tired of the website and wanted something new, and it just so happens I was done with “Tissues, Gummybear and Handcuffs” So here I start the second installment of my weblog-capades of which will be published. Now that TGH is done I have to go through and edit it and all that and get it ready for print. Well quite frankly people,...