December 2011
36 posts
*resolutions*
Be healthier (mind, body, soul)
Go to ALL of my classes
Be more social, make more friends
Put my heart on a sleeve if this person deserves it
Drink/and or smoke more
Be happier
Honestly....
I feel like a dumbass for letting my feelings trigger with simple questions….but I miss my old boyfriend ok!? I fucking miss him. He was good to me, but he’s too insecure to realize it……i hate myself, go away as I wallow in my loneliness.
Videoblogging as an outlet, yeah?? →
I'm genuinely "OK" right now.
Today is Christmas Eve. My mother and I have gotten all of our shopping done so that we both didn’t have to leave the house. Christmas Eve is usually spent making holiday treats, watching Christmas movies (The Christmas Story and Eight Crazy Nights (yeah yeah, Hanukkah) are always played, yet my personal favorite will always be Home Alone. I try to tell lots of people that I’m never...
I'm annoyed..
I did my part, your turn.
done.
I think it’s amazing how you can feel so happy one day, looking forward to your future, feeling happy because, yes sure things could be better, but it’s not complete shit…but then you wake up one day and one of the most important people in your life leaves it, your dreams are crushed, and your left alone to rot. such a funny amazing thing to die in such a manner.
Heres to being too stupid, and having to take classes over, heres to not getting into pharmacy school, Here’s to always getting dumped, and having my heart broken, and heres to never being able to be happy, heres to having a disgusting, painful skin disease that is incurable, and heres to alcohol poisoning. and as always, heres to being a fat, dumb fuck who was never good enough for people...
Thanks world and the male race, for letting me...
Sunlight
The soft knock on the door woke me up.
Before I said anything the the door creaked opened
And she peered inside.
I held my breath still, and my body like a board
after a brief pause she quietly closed the door.
I couldn’t bear telling her I was too sad to get out of bed
That I absolutely had no more life to give.
Radiohead - No surprises
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maybe its just because I feel invisible and unappreciated, maybe taken advantage of? who knows…why am I wasting time analyzing this.
i'm just in a shitty mood, if you cant fucking...
im not excited for Christmas because I’m tired of being cheated out of shit.
This is not an issue of material, but an issue of principle.
There is certain things I ask for for years, i never get them, and I don’t complain, but the minute my sister asks for it, its under the tree. Reader, I swear, i wouldn’t give a shit if I didn’t get anything , just as long as the stuff...
eh.
I’m just not happy today. I cant wait for winter break so I can just lay in my bed all day and not come out of them…the world sucks enough as it is when I have to go out in it.
my mother told me that if I wanted to eat what the...
Rant about something thats been pissing me off.
Some of my friends years ago would joke to me about how I was the “whitest” black person they know because I had good grammar and grew to love Nirvana…
My mother and I were talking last night about our family, about people who passed away, or got killed.
I feel a lot of people I know are musically prejudice towards r&b and hip hop and rap, but will try to defend their...
life is annoying me.
Annoyances
school
physics
microeconomics
my skin
my moms boyfriend
my room
the snow
the distance between my bf and I
my bf’s family
the distance between my friends and i
the fact that I want to study but cant because my mom’s bf picks RIGHT AT THIS EXACT FUCKING MOMENT IN TIME, to vacuum the house because he was too busy taking the dog to his parents house, where shes not...
Well....
I finally have a reason to be mad at my boyfriend…
And honestly this is a relief…
it was starting to feel weird having everything seemingly perfect.
pennieroyaltee:
Kanye West featuring Jay-Z, Rick...
Nicki Minaj - Itty Bitty Piggy
Watercolors
So you keep asking me what I want, and I keep telling you nothing. Granted, you are my favorite person in the world, but I know much better. I could never trust you with this, my happiness. What will I have left? All this runs through my head as you escort me outside. You haven’t told me where we’re going. It’s a surprise, you say. It’s freezing. My nipples feel like icy...
Holidaze and such.
it’s 8 hours before my concert tonight. I cant wait for it to be over. I really cant stand the people in my chorus class. I dont like them because I felt like the people I had to sing with tried their best to just not talk to me at all. and I don’t blame them, one of them, a senior as I should be, i’m pretty sure was tired of talking, just wanted to get out. Everytime we’d...
Oh Hi middle school/high school/tony hawk...
