OK GUYS! this is the 2nd TIME. I am uploading this photoset
Why? you may ask? TW: Mental Illness and Racism
Well. Because when I vulnerably put these pictures up yesterday AFTER EXPLAINING THAT I WAS DOING IT BECAUSE I JUST GOT OUT OF A SUICIDAL EPISODE THAT COMES WITH MY UNTREATED BIPOLAR.
THIS lovely little fucker right here decides to reblog my pictures in a malicious way with the intent to “mock” me for the color of my skin. You know, unfortunately with my illnesses, I can’t be the “stereotypical strong black woman.” In my present days, I’m knocked down real easy because I’ve had a whole fucked up life of just bad things that I don’t feel like getting into (But if you ever want to read, it’s all right there in my personal tag)
You see, I expected to get hate for these pictures for my size, but, I was not prepared to get any kind of negative feedback because of my skin color. It’s 2013, why the hell is this still even an issue. I contacted Tumblr support (didn’t threaten that asshole or anything) And I calmly explained to them the situation, and told them, while I understand removing THIS BLOG may be out of the question, All I asked was that they override whatever they have to and simply take down my reblog off of his blog (They created this website, you’d think it shouldn’t be a problem right?)
Instead I get this generic bullshit response, no apologies for any embarrassment I suffered, no help, no anything. “Just ignore them so they don’t show up on your blog anymore” They were never ON MY BLOG tumblr. THEY SEEKED ME OUT. I HAD NO ASSOCIATION WITH THEM UNTIL THEY CAME ON MY BLOG AND REBLOGGED WITH MALICIOUS INTENT.
See Tumblr does not care if your personal things are slandered. They don’t care if my picture will forever be associated with “The Anti-N*gger dog” As A black woman, how is that supposed to make me feel about myself? That it isn’t “against the rules” to be slandered in such a manner? What makes me so sick, about this whole thing? Is the fact that if I had not tagged that photoset with “POC” that this would not have happened.
I would not have been triggered last night and sent to the hospital. I would not have a $250 hospital bill that I cannot pay for now. So I’m posting this again (unfortunately without the “POC” because I feel like I’ll be attacked again) Because I at least deserve to post these pictures with some damn pride. I don’t care if you think I’m a fat, black ugly girl. This fat, black ugly girl deserves to not be attacked for merely existing on this website.
So thank you Tumblr. Thank you for nothing, but you know, I wasn’t stupid. I knew this shit still existed. It’s just a damn shame that there is literally no way to be protected from it. Now if you ask me? That’s something to think about.
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- lichgem said: Is it okay if I reblog this?
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- selkiekingdom said: I’m so sorry this happened to you; fuck those shitstains. You are strong, and beautiful, and I hope you’re doing okay.
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